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Title: Addiction: ( A Journey through Fame, Money and Love)
Pairing: KoKame, TaNaka (one sided), MaruDa
Author: Me ( mrs_koki)
Disclaimer: owning people is called slavery, common though historically
Rating: NC-17 for smut and drug use
Genre: Drama, Yaoi, drug
A/N (1): Remember the rules please
A/N (2): I got the idea for this while I was in the shower..of all places lol
Koki wakes to a loud noise coming from his living room, rolling over he takes a peek at his alarm clock and sees that its only five in the blessed AM. Annoyed he goes to get up but realizes his legs are tangled up with someone else’s and worst of all he’s shaking so bad that he’s sure the bed was vibrating beneath him..yawning he turns to look at the sleeping form next too him...
“ Yuichi...when did you...” He stops when he’s sees that its Kame sleeping next to him and not Nakamaru. “ But why is he...oh yeah that’s right, he kept me company to try and chase away the loneliness I felt.” He murmurs quietly so as not to wake Kame earlier than he has too.
He lays back down thinking that the noise he heard was probably just him dreaming, and as he closes his eyes..he heard it again. Not wanting Kame to wake up-he can be a real drama queen if he’s woken up earlier than he has too be-koki goes to see what all the commotion is about coming from his living room getting an early morning shock he wasn’t expecting..
“ Yu..Yuichi? What are you doing here?” Koki asked shocked as hell, he wasn’t expecting to see him again until Monday when he went back to work.
“ I just came by to get my stuff and...are you okay? You’re shaking worse than a leaf on a tree.” He asks genuinely concerned.
Koki just looks at his hands and says,“ Oh that...its nothing. Don’t worry about it. I just didn’t...” Koki starts but his explanation is cut short by a curt voice coming from the hallway as Kame got up to see where his friend had disappeared too....
“ Stop. You don’t owe him an explanation Koki. If he can’t figure out why you’re so shaky then that’s not our concern. He’s the one that’s running out on you, remember? I say just let him get his stuff and get out, but that’s up too you.” Kame says and makes his way over to where he knows Koki keeps his drugs and pulls out a needle, the heroine and the belt Koki wraps around his bicep, and waits for Koki in the kitchen.
Maru glares at Kame’s retreating form and turns to face Koki...
“ Well, I won’t take long..and wait a mother fucking minute! Why is he here so early and what in the hell is he doing coming out of our bedroom, Koki?” Maru shouts, why he’s so pissed off, the lord only knows.
Koki just looks dejected as he says...
“ I thought you were getting your stuff?”
“ I am..its just..” he’s cut off by Kame’s shout of “ Koki!”
“ I’m coming Kame!” Koki responds as Maru just storms past Koki and into their bedroom to collect his clothes and what not.
Koki just stands there watching as Maru walks down the short hallway looking like he’s going to break down any moment, until his friend comes out wondering what’s taking so long.
“ Hey Koki? We need to get this in your system before something bad happens.” he warns leaning his head on Koki’s shoulder for a minute.
“Okay.” Koki follows Kame back into his kitchen where he ties the belt securely around Koki’s arm. As he’s filling the needle with just enough of the drug to stop Koki’s shaking and to take the edge off so he doesn’t suffer a heart attack right there in the kitchen, Maru comes in and goes to take the needle from Kame.
“ What the hell, Kame?!” How is he supposed to get clean?” he makes a grab for the now capped needle or would only Koki beat him to it as Kame rounds on Maru..
“ Its none of your business, Yuichi. I’m doing what you don’t have the heart to do, I’m actually trying to help Koki instead of turning my back on him!” He shouts.
“ Helping? Enabling more like.” He snorts and walks closer to Koki. “ Now hand over the needle Koki.” He commands.
“ No, I need it. I’m sorry but I can’t.” Koki says.
Enraged at what’s going on Maru makes another attempt at taking the needle, not knowing that, unlike the cocaine Koki takes to which he doesn't need to be weaned off of as slowly, heroine is not a drug you can just stop taking cold turkey. The end result has deadly consequences and Kame’s not about let anything unfixable happen to his best friend/crush.
“ Cut it out, Maru! Just take your shit and get the hell out of here!” Kame orders standing between Maru and Koki.
“ Are you just going to stand there and let him talk to me that way?” Maru asks indignantly, while Koki just turns his head unable to answer.
“ Fine! I’ll leave!” He retorts grabbing his stuff, throwing his house key across the living room and slams the front door on his way out.
“ Hey are you okay?” Kame asks concerned for Koki’s state of mind.
“ I don’t know, Kazu.” he says sadly.
“ Its okay if you’re not. Come on, you’re shaking worse than ever.” He smiles at Koki gently and guides him back to the dining room table and makes him sit down.
“ How much is in there?” Koki asks noticing that its a slightly smaller dose than his usual.
“ Just enough to take the edge off and stop the shaking. More importantly its enough to make sure you live to see the sun come up again..or at the very least to make it through the day.” he answers tapping the syringe to get any air bubbles out.
“ How do you know what the correct amount should be?” Koki asks feeling slightly bewildered as he injects the drug into his vein while Kame watches.
Kame just smiles, taking the needle back when Koki was done. He puts the cap back on and tosses it in the garbage and the puts the belt and narcotic back where Koki keeps it.
“ That’s not important Koki, at least not right now. Come on lets go back too sleep, kay? I still have time before filming.” He says while stifling a huge yawn, none too pleased about Maru waking him with the racket he was making.
“ Alright.” he says and follows Kame back to bed.
“ Hey Kame?”
“Yeah?”
“ Thanks.” Koki says and pulls the covers up higher over them both.
“ Its no problem..now shh..go to sleep.” Kame says with his finger on Koki’s lips.
Five hours later Koki crawls out of bed and notices Kame’s not there, panicking slightly as his emotions threatened to crush his very being he runs into the living room searching for Kame but he’s not there nor is he on the balcony. As he’s coming back inside after getting a breath of fresh air he steps on something metallic and cold, bending down he picks up the key Maru threw away five hours prior. He goes back to his bedroom and as he’s passing his kitchen the smell of Kame’s fried eggs meets his nose. Following his nose he pushes open the kitchen door and walks over to the stove..
“ I was wondering where you got off too, Kame. You weren’t there when I woke up and I started to panic slightly.”
“ Sorry about that Koki. I didn’t mean to scare you, besides you know you can’t chase me away even if you wanted too.” He smirks as he tells Koki to go and take a shower while he finishes breakfast.
Koki comes out five minutes later fully dressed with a towel wrapped around his neck, he was going to dry his hair but he didn’t feel like it.
“ Smells wonderful Kame, breakfast ready?” Koki asks as he’s told to set the table.
“ Yep. I made your favorite too so you have to eat all of it.”
“ Hahaha...sure thing. You know, Kame, you just might be the only person to actually get me to eat peppers with my eggs.” He says affectionately, its true though. Kame made the dish once for everyone in KT but he didn’t think Koki would eat it since it did have peppers in it and Koki hates peppers...especially if he doesn’t know he’s eating them before hand. Before Kame could warn him, Koki took a bite of Kame’s food and after getting over the initial surprise of the peppers he found that for some reason he actually enjoyed it, he enjoyed it so much that he proclaimed it too be the best egg dish he’s ever had and that it was now one of his favorite foods.
“ Yeah I know, I remember that day all too well. While I was happy and slightly embarrassed, a certain person wasn’t too happy about it and...geeze..Koki is your hair still wet? You’ll catch a cold man.” He exclaims getting up.
Kame walks over to Koki and whips the fluffy towel from his neck and proceeds to attack Koki’s head with it. He rubs Koki’s hair and scalp gently to get the water out, making sure to thoroughly massage the thicker parts of Koki’s hair.
“ There you go” Kame says and erupts into a massive case of the giggles at the sight of just how poofy Koki’s hair looks. “ You should totally see your hair right now”
“ Why?” Koki asks slowly.
Kame just shoves his small mirror in front of Koki who, upon seeing his hair, just scowls.
“OI!! Kame!” Koki glares though he realizes he looks about as threatening as a poodle.
“ Hang on...I got some hair product in my bag.” He goes to his bag and pulls out the small jar. Walking back to where Koki is sitting, his breakfast long gone from his plate, unscrews the lid and putting a small amount of product on his hands. After rubbing his hands together for five seconds he starts running his hands all over and through Koki’s hair, making Koki hum pleasantly at the gentle touch of Kame’s small fingers...
“There you go Koki, how does it look?” he asks a little nervously waiting for Koki’s reaction.
“ I like it, thanks Kame.” he gives Kame a half-hearted smile. Its not much but for Kame its enough.
Beaming Kame puts the dishes in a sink full of water so they won’t be such a pain in the ass to wash later while Koki puts Rai-chan and Sai-chan in their cages.
“ Ready Koki?”
“ Yeah but what happens if I...” he starts but Kame cuts across him...
“ Don’t worry, Koki, your “candy” is in my bag just in case, plus a few other things we may or may not need are already in the trunk of my car. Now come on.” Kame says reassuringly as they head down to Kame’s car.
Koki doesn’t know why he does what he’s about to do, all he knows is that he wants too.
“ Here take it..” He holds out Maru’s house key as they pull into the parking garage of the studio where Kame’s filming his 1 pound gospel drama.
“ But this is...why?” Kame asks perplexed.
“ I just want you too have it just in case, even though we’re just friends and even if he does come back...there’s always a spare key under the welcome mat. Please take it Kame.” Koki pleads and the look he gives Kame shows just how bad off he really is.
“ Okay Koki. I’ll take it, thank you.” he puts the key on his key ring right there so Koki knows he’s just not humoring him. “ Let’s go..I have a drama to film.”
Meanwhile before Maru and Ueda have to appear on Music Station....
“ Are you sure about this Maru? I know Koki’s addiction hurts you and I get that you feel neglected having taken a backseat to his drug habit..but to just break things off with him and abandon him like this? He needs your help and support more than ever.” Ueda asks, not entirely sure at this point as to what’s going through his friend’s head.
“ Yes, Tat-chan, I’m sure. In fact I have never been more sure about anything in my life. I have tried to help him, I took him to rehab but he just checked himself out the next day, I tried hiding his drugs but he always tore the place apart searching until he finally found them..hell, I even went so far as to throw the shit away but he just got really pissed and put a hole through the wall. When he came back he had twice the amount he had before. I just got sick tired of going through the same vicious cycle over the past two years and my love for him started to fade I guess. Even though we were good friends long before anything else happened and while as a friend I can still care about him...but as far as anything more than that..” he just shrugs.
“ Look Yuichi, the fact remains that he still needs those around him that love him to support him right now. He said he would kick his addictions didn’t he?”
“ Yeah but he also claims that he just can’t quite cold turkey. Its the same mantra he’s promised me a thousand different times and but instead of going forwards he winds up by going backwards.”
Ueda stays silent for a bit before asking....
“ So do you know where Kame was all last night? He was supposed to go to Karoke with me and Junno last night but he never showed up.”
“ Yes, I do and I wish I didn’t.” Maru said darkly. “ When I stopped by the apartment at five this morning I saw him coming from Koki’s bedroom wearing nothing but a pair shorts. You don’t think they...?”
“ Nah. Kame’s not the predatory type and despite Koki being high for about nintey-five percent of his days and nights he wouldn’t take advantage of Kame like that. I just suspect that Koki has a hard time sleeping and is feeling lonely, and knowing Kame he just tried to help chase away Koki’s loneliness as best he could.” Ueda gave Maru a reassuring smile.
“ Can I stay at your place for a bit? At least until I can find another apartment.” Maru asks.
“ Yeah sure.” He agrees and the two go on to do their interview laughing with hosts as if their private lives weren’t turned upside down at the moment.
“ That taping was fun wasn’t Maru?” Ueda asked with a smile
“ Sure was. Wanna get dinner with me?” He asks Ueda, not really wanting to eat alone.
“ Okay.”
After changing Maru and Ueda head to a nearby restaurant which just happens to be near the expensive shopping/eating district that Kame favors so much and that’s just where Kame takes Koki for a shopping venture and dinner. The director manages to get filming done early for the day which was a good thing since Koki was clearly in need of “ candy” seeing as he was getting fidgety and he was starting to shiver. Kame grabs Koki and pulls him into the dressing room and locks the door so as not to be interrupted.
“ Here...” Kame hands Koki his bag. “ Since you’re having a good reaction day then only snort half of what you normally do, it should calm you down and stop the slight shivering as well.”
Feeling the surge of the coke coursing through his body, Koki does calm down and he stops shivering for the time being. After putting his stuff back and handing the bag back to Kame, he says....
“ I’m sorry Kame. You shouldn’t have to do this with your busy schedule and everything. I’m sorry for being so weak and...I miss him Kame. I know I shouldn’t, not after what he did and I know I should just forget him but I can’t!” he starts crying crystal like tears of sadness falling down his face.
Walking over Kame forces himself between his friend’s legs and pulls him closer, having Koki rest his head against the flat belly as he cries for the first time since Maru left him yesterday. Kame just stands there as Koki’s tears, heartache, and all the emotions he’s been feeling stab at his heart. He wants to make Koki forget Maru, he wants to confess but he knows in his heart that now isn’t the right time, no matter how much it hurts him. Kneeling to down so he can look his friend in the face properly he says....
“ Here.” he hands Koki some tissue. “ You don’t have to apologize Koki. Its not your fault, not really. Its the drugs and Nakamaru’s fault. You’re not weak, Koki, actually you’re one of the strongest people I know. And if anyone can kick this addiction its you, you’ve only been doing this for like a month now and I have been -will continue-to be here helping you every step of the way. Ueda and Junno are here for you as well while they can’t do the other stuff that I do, they can help you in other ways..like with your’s and Maru’s situation. While its sweet of you to worry about me and my work load Koki, don’t be. I’ll be fine alright.” He finishes.
“ Thanks Kame.” He says after clearing his nose.
“ Hey I have an idea. Lets go shopping and then get dinner, my treat. Sound good?” Kame asks as he’s putting his winter coat on seeing as the temperature decided to drop another ten degrees while they were inside in the nice cozy heat.
“ Okay. You don’t plan on letting me think about him much, do?” Koki asks, trying to smile.
“ Nope. Now lets go.” Kame says and smile more brighter than Koki’s forms on Kame’s lips.
It takes them about an hour-and-a half to get there due too the sheer amount of traffic. Five hours later they are walking down to the Kame’s favorite place to eat, shopping bags in hand and head inside. Seeing as Kame frequents the place quite often him and Koki are automatically seated in the corner booth, where Kame orders for them both since Koki’s never eaten here before and therefore has no idea what to get. Normally Kame drinks wine with his food but since Koki’s just shot up he thinks that Koki and alcohol wouldn’t be the best combination right now, so he doesn’t order any which Koki doesn’t fail to comment on as the waiter brings his food over.
“ Why didn’t you get wine like you usually do when you eat in nice places like this?” Koki asked curiously.
“ Well..its not like you should be drinking it until the “candy” has worn off and I don’t know, I guess I just don’t feel like it.” Kame says as the dig into their dinner.
In spite of how much like a monster he feels he can’t help but enjoy himself and he genuinely smiles for the first time today, until someone walks through the door that he wishes hadn’t.
“ Kame”
“ What’s up?”
Koki just nods his head in the direction of the front door as two people start walking their direction. Looking where Koki motioned, Kame groans and his protectiveness shoots straight to the surface as Maru and Ueda pass by. Ueda stops just long enough to say hi and ask Koki how he’s doing. Kame tells Ueda the truth knowing full well that he’ll tell Maru a different tale long after him and Koki leave.
“ I don’t know much about these things but I do know about relationships, Koki, and I doubt very much if that baka will come back to you. I’m sorry Koki.” Ueda says, like Kame..even he feels bad for Koki for what Maru’s putting him through." I don’t know what you’re going through trying to kick your habit but I do know that if you’re serious enough then you will make it.” He says and pats Koki on the shoulder as he joins Maru at their table further away.
After dinner Kame takes his friend home and puts his stuff back in the cabinet so Koki knows it will be there later when he needs it. As Koki feeds his dogs after they come back in from doing their canine duty outside, Kame goes to leave. He stops at the door and asks...
“ Are you sure you don’t want me to stay?” He double checks.
“ Right now I’m sure but I don’t how about later though. So you can just go home..I’m sure Ran-chan and Jelly-chan miss their daddy.” Koki says.
“ Okay, I’ll leave my phone on just in case. Don’t hesitate to call me okay? I don’t care if its at two in the morning. If you need me then call.”
“ Okay Kame.”
Kame nods and heads home. When he gets home he lets his own dogs out, feeds them when they come back in and sits down on the couch and tries to get started on his interview questions. He doesn’t get very far as he just can’t seem to stop worrying about Koki being home alone, and with good reason. Koki spends the next few hours or so doing anything and everything he can think off to take his mind off things and its working rather well until he gets a call from a drunken Maru on his answering machine. After hitting play he goes and starts washing the dishes from this morning, as he’s listening to it he starts getting depressed all over again. He doesn’t even bother to put the dishes away instead he just shuts himself in his bedroom and grabs a pair of scissors from his sewing kit and slices his wrist open. Realizing what he’s done he immediately calls the ambulance who get to his place just in the nick of time to find him on his knees holding a towel around the wound on his arm. They immediately take him to the hospital where he’s stabilized and admitted over night on suicide watch.
He asks if he can have visitors while he’s being watched, the doctor says he can only have one visitor. So picking up the phone he calls Kame. He feels bad that he’s waking him at three in the morning but he just can't handle being alone right now. Across the city, a certain turtle’s phone starts ringing, Kame rolls over and grabs his phone off the nightstand..he doesn’t recognize the number. So being curious he answers it and gets a shock that no one wants this late at night...
“ Oh my..Koki! Are you okay? I’ll be right down.” He says and after pulling on his warmer clothes he speeds towards the hospital. He mentally kicks himself for leaving Koki alone.
He gets there and asks the nurse which room Koki was in. She gives him the room number and points down the hall. He almost runs to the end of the hall and shoves Koki’s door open, he stops short at the sight of Koki’s bandaged wrist and the restraints that have his arms chained to the bed.
“ Koki..what happened?” He asks.
Koki starts explaining what happened after Kame left him. He gets too the part about Maru’s message and has a hard time breathing while he repeats what he can remember.
“ So the end result is this, Kame.”
“ Its alright, I’m here now. Just sleep okay, I’ll be here when you wake up.” Kame assures him as Koki closes his eyes.
The next morning Koki wakes up and sees Kame camped out in the bed next to him just as he said he would be. Kame wakes up when the doctor comes in and asks Koki what happened. He recounts the events of last night, only altering the story slightly leaving Maru out of it and making up some bull shit excuse.
“ Morning..you must be the friend he asked about last night?” The doctor says as Kame stifles a yawn and nods his agreement.
“ So how long does he have to stay here and chained up?” Kame asks.
“ Well I want him here for a psyche evaluation for the next two days but as long as he doesn’t attempt last night’s stunt again, I don’t see why he has to wear the restraints.” the doctor answers back.
“ You won’t, will you Koki?” Kame glares at Koki.
“ No, I won’t.” Koki assures the doctor and the doctor frees his arms and leaves the two friends alone.
“ So, do you want to tell the others?”
“ Yeah, they will find out sooner or later.”
Kame calls Ueda and Junno who rush right over. Maru wasn’t around and his phone’s battery was completely dead, he only found out after Juri accidently bumps into him in the hallways of JE. After finding out where Koki was, he rushes towards the hospital and Koki’s room. He’s about to knock when the door opens and Ueda and Junno walk out. He’s tries to go in but he’s stopped by Kame..
“ Why are you here? I thought he didn’t mean anything to you?” Kame asks his voice is low with an under current of anger in it.
“ I heard what happened and I...” he’s stopped by Koki’s voice..
“ Who is it Kazu?” Koki asks.
Turning his head in Koki’s direction he says, “ Its Yuichi.”
“ Tell him I don’t want to see him right now.” He says just loud enough for Kame to hear.
Kame nods, “ He doesn’t want you here.”
“ I don’t believe you Kame, I won’t leave until he tells me that himself. I don’t want to hear from some damn guard dog!”
Sighing Koki hears Maru’s outburst and gets up. He walks over and Kame moves so koki can stand next to him and repeats what he just told Kame.
“ I don’t need or want you here Nakamaru and don’t call Kame names. Now get out of here.” he says and shuts the door with a snap.
“ Maru...? Come on. Let Kame handle Koki okay” Junno says and steers Maru away from Koki’s hospital room. “ Kame can help him and maybe later on Koki will talk to you, as long as you don’t keep saying all those nasty things too him.”
Maru says nothing and allows himself to be steered out of the hospital. Kame stayed by Koki’s hospital bed only leaving long enough to film some more scenes for his tv show and to smuggle Koki’s cocaine into the hospital.
“ I would have brought the other stuff but the nurses would notice the fresh marks and I wanted to avoid unwanted questions.” He says later that night, he gets to leave tomorrow.
He looks over and sees that Koki has fallen asleep, he walks over and pulls the covers up and whispers...
“ I wish you would try and love me, Koki. This is just isn’t hurting you..it hurts me as well. I love you Koki.” He lightly kisses the top of Koki’s head and goes to sleep in the adjacent bed.
Pairing: KoKame, TaNaka (one sided), MaruDa
Author: Me ( mrs_koki)
Disclaimer: owning people is called slavery, common though historically
Rating: NC-17 for smut and drug use
Genre: Drama, Yaoi, drug
A/N (1): Remember the rules please
A/N (2): I got the idea for this while I was in the shower..of all places lol
Koki wakes to a loud noise coming from his living room, rolling over he takes a peek at his alarm clock and sees that its only five in the blessed AM. Annoyed he goes to get up but realizes his legs are tangled up with someone else’s and worst of all he’s shaking so bad that he’s sure the bed was vibrating beneath him..yawning he turns to look at the sleeping form next too him...
“ Yuichi...when did you...” He stops when he’s sees that its Kame sleeping next to him and not Nakamaru. “ But why is he...oh yeah that’s right, he kept me company to try and chase away the loneliness I felt.” He murmurs quietly so as not to wake Kame earlier than he has too.
He lays back down thinking that the noise he heard was probably just him dreaming, and as he closes his eyes..he heard it again. Not wanting Kame to wake up-he can be a real drama queen if he’s woken up earlier than he has too be-koki goes to see what all the commotion is about coming from his living room getting an early morning shock he wasn’t expecting..
“ Yu..Yuichi? What are you doing here?” Koki asked shocked as hell, he wasn’t expecting to see him again until Monday when he went back to work.
“ I just came by to get my stuff and...are you okay? You’re shaking worse than a leaf on a tree.” He asks genuinely concerned.
Koki just looks at his hands and says,“ Oh that...its nothing. Don’t worry about it. I just didn’t...” Koki starts but his explanation is cut short by a curt voice coming from the hallway as Kame got up to see where his friend had disappeared too....
“ Stop. You don’t owe him an explanation Koki. If he can’t figure out why you’re so shaky then that’s not our concern. He’s the one that’s running out on you, remember? I say just let him get his stuff and get out, but that’s up too you.” Kame says and makes his way over to where he knows Koki keeps his drugs and pulls out a needle, the heroine and the belt Koki wraps around his bicep, and waits for Koki in the kitchen.
Maru glares at Kame’s retreating form and turns to face Koki...
“ Well, I won’t take long..and wait a mother fucking minute! Why is he here so early and what in the hell is he doing coming out of our bedroom, Koki?” Maru shouts, why he’s so pissed off, the lord only knows.
Koki just looks dejected as he says...
“ I thought you were getting your stuff?”
“ I am..its just..” he’s cut off by Kame’s shout of “ Koki!”
“ I’m coming Kame!” Koki responds as Maru just storms past Koki and into their bedroom to collect his clothes and what not.
Koki just stands there watching as Maru walks down the short hallway looking like he’s going to break down any moment, until his friend comes out wondering what’s taking so long.
“ Hey Koki? We need to get this in your system before something bad happens.” he warns leaning his head on Koki’s shoulder for a minute.
“Okay.” Koki follows Kame back into his kitchen where he ties the belt securely around Koki’s arm. As he’s filling the needle with just enough of the drug to stop Koki’s shaking and to take the edge off so he doesn’t suffer a heart attack right there in the kitchen, Maru comes in and goes to take the needle from Kame.
“ What the hell, Kame?!” How is he supposed to get clean?” he makes a grab for the now capped needle or would only Koki beat him to it as Kame rounds on Maru..
“ Its none of your business, Yuichi. I’m doing what you don’t have the heart to do, I’m actually trying to help Koki instead of turning my back on him!” He shouts.
“ Helping? Enabling more like.” He snorts and walks closer to Koki. “ Now hand over the needle Koki.” He commands.
“ No, I need it. I’m sorry but I can’t.” Koki says.
Enraged at what’s going on Maru makes another attempt at taking the needle, not knowing that, unlike the cocaine Koki takes to which he doesn't need to be weaned off of as slowly, heroine is not a drug you can just stop taking cold turkey. The end result has deadly consequences and Kame’s not about let anything unfixable happen to his best friend/crush.
“ Cut it out, Maru! Just take your shit and get the hell out of here!” Kame orders standing between Maru and Koki.
“ Are you just going to stand there and let him talk to me that way?” Maru asks indignantly, while Koki just turns his head unable to answer.
“ Fine! I’ll leave!” He retorts grabbing his stuff, throwing his house key across the living room and slams the front door on his way out.
“ Hey are you okay?” Kame asks concerned for Koki’s state of mind.
“ I don’t know, Kazu.” he says sadly.
“ Its okay if you’re not. Come on, you’re shaking worse than ever.” He smiles at Koki gently and guides him back to the dining room table and makes him sit down.
“ How much is in there?” Koki asks noticing that its a slightly smaller dose than his usual.
“ Just enough to take the edge off and stop the shaking. More importantly its enough to make sure you live to see the sun come up again..or at the very least to make it through the day.” he answers tapping the syringe to get any air bubbles out.
“ How do you know what the correct amount should be?” Koki asks feeling slightly bewildered as he injects the drug into his vein while Kame watches.
Kame just smiles, taking the needle back when Koki was done. He puts the cap back on and tosses it in the garbage and the puts the belt and narcotic back where Koki keeps it.
“ That’s not important Koki, at least not right now. Come on lets go back too sleep, kay? I still have time before filming.” He says while stifling a huge yawn, none too pleased about Maru waking him with the racket he was making.
“ Alright.” he says and follows Kame back to bed.
“ Hey Kame?”
“Yeah?”
“ Thanks.” Koki says and pulls the covers up higher over them both.
“ Its no problem..now shh..go to sleep.” Kame says with his finger on Koki’s lips.
Five hours later Koki crawls out of bed and notices Kame’s not there, panicking slightly as his emotions threatened to crush his very being he runs into the living room searching for Kame but he’s not there nor is he on the balcony. As he’s coming back inside after getting a breath of fresh air he steps on something metallic and cold, bending down he picks up the key Maru threw away five hours prior. He goes back to his bedroom and as he’s passing his kitchen the smell of Kame’s fried eggs meets his nose. Following his nose he pushes open the kitchen door and walks over to the stove..
“ I was wondering where you got off too, Kame. You weren’t there when I woke up and I started to panic slightly.”
“ Sorry about that Koki. I didn’t mean to scare you, besides you know you can’t chase me away even if you wanted too.” He smirks as he tells Koki to go and take a shower while he finishes breakfast.
Koki comes out five minutes later fully dressed with a towel wrapped around his neck, he was going to dry his hair but he didn’t feel like it.
“ Smells wonderful Kame, breakfast ready?” Koki asks as he’s told to set the table.
“ Yep. I made your favorite too so you have to eat all of it.”
“ Hahaha...sure thing. You know, Kame, you just might be the only person to actually get me to eat peppers with my eggs.” He says affectionately, its true though. Kame made the dish once for everyone in KT but he didn’t think Koki would eat it since it did have peppers in it and Koki hates peppers...especially if he doesn’t know he’s eating them before hand. Before Kame could warn him, Koki took a bite of Kame’s food and after getting over the initial surprise of the peppers he found that for some reason he actually enjoyed it, he enjoyed it so much that he proclaimed it too be the best egg dish he’s ever had and that it was now one of his favorite foods.
“ Yeah I know, I remember that day all too well. While I was happy and slightly embarrassed, a certain person wasn’t too happy about it and...geeze..Koki is your hair still wet? You’ll catch a cold man.” He exclaims getting up.
Kame walks over to Koki and whips the fluffy towel from his neck and proceeds to attack Koki’s head with it. He rubs Koki’s hair and scalp gently to get the water out, making sure to thoroughly massage the thicker parts of Koki’s hair.
“ There you go” Kame says and erupts into a massive case of the giggles at the sight of just how poofy Koki’s hair looks. “ You should totally see your hair right now”
“ Why?” Koki asks slowly.
Kame just shoves his small mirror in front of Koki who, upon seeing his hair, just scowls.
“OI!! Kame!” Koki glares though he realizes he looks about as threatening as a poodle.
“ Hang on...I got some hair product in my bag.” He goes to his bag and pulls out the small jar. Walking back to where Koki is sitting, his breakfast long gone from his plate, unscrews the lid and putting a small amount of product on his hands. After rubbing his hands together for five seconds he starts running his hands all over and through Koki’s hair, making Koki hum pleasantly at the gentle touch of Kame’s small fingers...
“There you go Koki, how does it look?” he asks a little nervously waiting for Koki’s reaction.
“ I like it, thanks Kame.” he gives Kame a half-hearted smile. Its not much but for Kame its enough.
Beaming Kame puts the dishes in a sink full of water so they won’t be such a pain in the ass to wash later while Koki puts Rai-chan and Sai-chan in their cages.
“ Ready Koki?”
“ Yeah but what happens if I...” he starts but Kame cuts across him...
“ Don’t worry, Koki, your “candy” is in my bag just in case, plus a few other things we may or may not need are already in the trunk of my car. Now come on.” Kame says reassuringly as they head down to Kame’s car.
Koki doesn’t know why he does what he’s about to do, all he knows is that he wants too.
“ Here take it..” He holds out Maru’s house key as they pull into the parking garage of the studio where Kame’s filming his 1 pound gospel drama.
“ But this is...why?” Kame asks perplexed.
“ I just want you too have it just in case, even though we’re just friends and even if he does come back...there’s always a spare key under the welcome mat. Please take it Kame.” Koki pleads and the look he gives Kame shows just how bad off he really is.
“ Okay Koki. I’ll take it, thank you.” he puts the key on his key ring right there so Koki knows he’s just not humoring him. “ Let’s go..I have a drama to film.”
Meanwhile before Maru and Ueda have to appear on Music Station....
“ Are you sure about this Maru? I know Koki’s addiction hurts you and I get that you feel neglected having taken a backseat to his drug habit..but to just break things off with him and abandon him like this? He needs your help and support more than ever.” Ueda asks, not entirely sure at this point as to what’s going through his friend’s head.
“ Yes, Tat-chan, I’m sure. In fact I have never been more sure about anything in my life. I have tried to help him, I took him to rehab but he just checked himself out the next day, I tried hiding his drugs but he always tore the place apart searching until he finally found them..hell, I even went so far as to throw the shit away but he just got really pissed and put a hole through the wall. When he came back he had twice the amount he had before. I just got sick tired of going through the same vicious cycle over the past two years and my love for him started to fade I guess. Even though we were good friends long before anything else happened and while as a friend I can still care about him...but as far as anything more than that..” he just shrugs.
“ Look Yuichi, the fact remains that he still needs those around him that love him to support him right now. He said he would kick his addictions didn’t he?”
“ Yeah but he also claims that he just can’t quite cold turkey. Its the same mantra he’s promised me a thousand different times and but instead of going forwards he winds up by going backwards.”
Ueda stays silent for a bit before asking....
“ So do you know where Kame was all last night? He was supposed to go to Karoke with me and Junno last night but he never showed up.”
“ Yes, I do and I wish I didn’t.” Maru said darkly. “ When I stopped by the apartment at five this morning I saw him coming from Koki’s bedroom wearing nothing but a pair shorts. You don’t think they...?”
“ Nah. Kame’s not the predatory type and despite Koki being high for about nintey-five percent of his days and nights he wouldn’t take advantage of Kame like that. I just suspect that Koki has a hard time sleeping and is feeling lonely, and knowing Kame he just tried to help chase away Koki’s loneliness as best he could.” Ueda gave Maru a reassuring smile.
“ Can I stay at your place for a bit? At least until I can find another apartment.” Maru asks.
“ Yeah sure.” He agrees and the two go on to do their interview laughing with hosts as if their private lives weren’t turned upside down at the moment.
“ That taping was fun wasn’t Maru?” Ueda asked with a smile
“ Sure was. Wanna get dinner with me?” He asks Ueda, not really wanting to eat alone.
“ Okay.”
After changing Maru and Ueda head to a nearby restaurant which just happens to be near the expensive shopping/eating district that Kame favors so much and that’s just where Kame takes Koki for a shopping venture and dinner. The director manages to get filming done early for the day which was a good thing since Koki was clearly in need of “ candy” seeing as he was getting fidgety and he was starting to shiver. Kame grabs Koki and pulls him into the dressing room and locks the door so as not to be interrupted.
“ Here...” Kame hands Koki his bag. “ Since you’re having a good reaction day then only snort half of what you normally do, it should calm you down and stop the slight shivering as well.”
Feeling the surge of the coke coursing through his body, Koki does calm down and he stops shivering for the time being. After putting his stuff back and handing the bag back to Kame, he says....
“ I’m sorry Kame. You shouldn’t have to do this with your busy schedule and everything. I’m sorry for being so weak and...I miss him Kame. I know I shouldn’t, not after what he did and I know I should just forget him but I can’t!” he starts crying crystal like tears of sadness falling down his face.
Walking over Kame forces himself between his friend’s legs and pulls him closer, having Koki rest his head against the flat belly as he cries for the first time since Maru left him yesterday. Kame just stands there as Koki’s tears, heartache, and all the emotions he’s been feeling stab at his heart. He wants to make Koki forget Maru, he wants to confess but he knows in his heart that now isn’t the right time, no matter how much it hurts him. Kneeling to down so he can look his friend in the face properly he says....
“ Here.” he hands Koki some tissue. “ You don’t have to apologize Koki. Its not your fault, not really. Its the drugs and Nakamaru’s fault. You’re not weak, Koki, actually you’re one of the strongest people I know. And if anyone can kick this addiction its you, you’ve only been doing this for like a month now and I have been -will continue-to be here helping you every step of the way. Ueda and Junno are here for you as well while they can’t do the other stuff that I do, they can help you in other ways..like with your’s and Maru’s situation. While its sweet of you to worry about me and my work load Koki, don’t be. I’ll be fine alright.” He finishes.
“ Thanks Kame.” He says after clearing his nose.
“ Hey I have an idea. Lets go shopping and then get dinner, my treat. Sound good?” Kame asks as he’s putting his winter coat on seeing as the temperature decided to drop another ten degrees while they were inside in the nice cozy heat.
“ Okay. You don’t plan on letting me think about him much, do?” Koki asks, trying to smile.
“ Nope. Now lets go.” Kame says and smile more brighter than Koki’s forms on Kame’s lips.
It takes them about an hour-and-a half to get there due too the sheer amount of traffic. Five hours later they are walking down to the Kame’s favorite place to eat, shopping bags in hand and head inside. Seeing as Kame frequents the place quite often him and Koki are automatically seated in the corner booth, where Kame orders for them both since Koki’s never eaten here before and therefore has no idea what to get. Normally Kame drinks wine with his food but since Koki’s just shot up he thinks that Koki and alcohol wouldn’t be the best combination right now, so he doesn’t order any which Koki doesn’t fail to comment on as the waiter brings his food over.
“ Why didn’t you get wine like you usually do when you eat in nice places like this?” Koki asked curiously.
“ Well..its not like you should be drinking it until the “candy” has worn off and I don’t know, I guess I just don’t feel like it.” Kame says as the dig into their dinner.
In spite of how much like a monster he feels he can’t help but enjoy himself and he genuinely smiles for the first time today, until someone walks through the door that he wishes hadn’t.
“ Kame”
“ What’s up?”
Koki just nods his head in the direction of the front door as two people start walking their direction. Looking where Koki motioned, Kame groans and his protectiveness shoots straight to the surface as Maru and Ueda pass by. Ueda stops just long enough to say hi and ask Koki how he’s doing. Kame tells Ueda the truth knowing full well that he’ll tell Maru a different tale long after him and Koki leave.
“ I don’t know much about these things but I do know about relationships, Koki, and I doubt very much if that baka will come back to you. I’m sorry Koki.” Ueda says, like Kame..even he feels bad for Koki for what Maru’s putting him through." I don’t know what you’re going through trying to kick your habit but I do know that if you’re serious enough then you will make it.” He says and pats Koki on the shoulder as he joins Maru at their table further away.
After dinner Kame takes his friend home and puts his stuff back in the cabinet so Koki knows it will be there later when he needs it. As Koki feeds his dogs after they come back in from doing their canine duty outside, Kame goes to leave. He stops at the door and asks...
“ Are you sure you don’t want me to stay?” He double checks.
“ Right now I’m sure but I don’t how about later though. So you can just go home..I’m sure Ran-chan and Jelly-chan miss their daddy.” Koki says.
“ Okay, I’ll leave my phone on just in case. Don’t hesitate to call me okay? I don’t care if its at two in the morning. If you need me then call.”
“ Okay Kame.”
Kame nods and heads home. When he gets home he lets his own dogs out, feeds them when they come back in and sits down on the couch and tries to get started on his interview questions. He doesn’t get very far as he just can’t seem to stop worrying about Koki being home alone, and with good reason. Koki spends the next few hours or so doing anything and everything he can think off to take his mind off things and its working rather well until he gets a call from a drunken Maru on his answering machine. After hitting play he goes and starts washing the dishes from this morning, as he’s listening to it he starts getting depressed all over again. He doesn’t even bother to put the dishes away instead he just shuts himself in his bedroom and grabs a pair of scissors from his sewing kit and slices his wrist open. Realizing what he’s done he immediately calls the ambulance who get to his place just in the nick of time to find him on his knees holding a towel around the wound on his arm. They immediately take him to the hospital where he’s stabilized and admitted over night on suicide watch.
He asks if he can have visitors while he’s being watched, the doctor says he can only have one visitor. So picking up the phone he calls Kame. He feels bad that he’s waking him at three in the morning but he just can't handle being alone right now. Across the city, a certain turtle’s phone starts ringing, Kame rolls over and grabs his phone off the nightstand..he doesn’t recognize the number. So being curious he answers it and gets a shock that no one wants this late at night...
“ Oh my..Koki! Are you okay? I’ll be right down.” He says and after pulling on his warmer clothes he speeds towards the hospital. He mentally kicks himself for leaving Koki alone.
He gets there and asks the nurse which room Koki was in. She gives him the room number and points down the hall. He almost runs to the end of the hall and shoves Koki’s door open, he stops short at the sight of Koki’s bandaged wrist and the restraints that have his arms chained to the bed.
“ Koki..what happened?” He asks.
Koki starts explaining what happened after Kame left him. He gets too the part about Maru’s message and has a hard time breathing while he repeats what he can remember.
“ So the end result is this, Kame.”
“ Its alright, I’m here now. Just sleep okay, I’ll be here when you wake up.” Kame assures him as Koki closes his eyes.
The next morning Koki wakes up and sees Kame camped out in the bed next to him just as he said he would be. Kame wakes up when the doctor comes in and asks Koki what happened. He recounts the events of last night, only altering the story slightly leaving Maru out of it and making up some bull shit excuse.
“ Morning..you must be the friend he asked about last night?” The doctor says as Kame stifles a yawn and nods his agreement.
“ So how long does he have to stay here and chained up?” Kame asks.
“ Well I want him here for a psyche evaluation for the next two days but as long as he doesn’t attempt last night’s stunt again, I don’t see why he has to wear the restraints.” the doctor answers back.
“ You won’t, will you Koki?” Kame glares at Koki.
“ No, I won’t.” Koki assures the doctor and the doctor frees his arms and leaves the two friends alone.
“ So, do you want to tell the others?”
“ Yeah, they will find out sooner or later.”
Kame calls Ueda and Junno who rush right over. Maru wasn’t around and his phone’s battery was completely dead, he only found out after Juri accidently bumps into him in the hallways of JE. After finding out where Koki was, he rushes towards the hospital and Koki’s room. He’s about to knock when the door opens and Ueda and Junno walk out. He’s tries to go in but he’s stopped by Kame..
“ Why are you here? I thought he didn’t mean anything to you?” Kame asks his voice is low with an under current of anger in it.
“ I heard what happened and I...” he’s stopped by Koki’s voice..
“ Who is it Kazu?” Koki asks.
Turning his head in Koki’s direction he says, “ Its Yuichi.”
“ Tell him I don’t want to see him right now.” He says just loud enough for Kame to hear.
Kame nods, “ He doesn’t want you here.”
“ I don’t believe you Kame, I won’t leave until he tells me that himself. I don’t want to hear from some damn guard dog!”
Sighing Koki hears Maru’s outburst and gets up. He walks over and Kame moves so koki can stand next to him and repeats what he just told Kame.
“ I don’t need or want you here Nakamaru and don’t call Kame names. Now get out of here.” he says and shuts the door with a snap.
“ Maru...? Come on. Let Kame handle Koki okay” Junno says and steers Maru away from Koki’s hospital room. “ Kame can help him and maybe later on Koki will talk to you, as long as you don’t keep saying all those nasty things too him.”
Maru says nothing and allows himself to be steered out of the hospital. Kame stayed by Koki’s hospital bed only leaving long enough to film some more scenes for his tv show and to smuggle Koki’s cocaine into the hospital.
“ I would have brought the other stuff but the nurses would notice the fresh marks and I wanted to avoid unwanted questions.” He says later that night, he gets to leave tomorrow.
He looks over and sees that Koki has fallen asleep, he walks over and pulls the covers up and whispers...
“ I wish you would try and love me, Koki. This is just isn’t hurting you..it hurts me as well. I love you Koki.” He lightly kisses the top of Koki’s head and goes to sleep in the adjacent bed.
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